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I seldom remember my dreams, maybe 3-4 times a year. The ones I do remember tend to be nightmares since those are the ones that I wake up still panicking from the experience, trying hard to concentrate to resolve my actual situation.
So I wake up tonight from a type of bad dream that I've never had before. Caught/trapped in a bad situation, subject to the whims of a total stranger who seems (through the logic of the situation) intent to annoy or destroy me socially/emotionally for his own amusement. I think I prefer the other bad dreams, the nightmares that are the usual culprits for waking me up.
1-2 minutes pass as I ponder my situation.
I realize that T'Reese is also having a bad dream. She's asleep at my waist, within arm's reach. (Very unusual.) I reach down to touch her. She steps off the mattress (still within arm's reach, as my hand still rests on her back in the dark) walking as if she's dealing with legs that have "gone to sleep". Then she gets all affectionate but not in the way that usually means she wants food. Then she settles down in bed again to groom herself, out of arm's reach. So she's back to normal now.
1-2 minutes pass as I ponder her situation.
I realize that the house is under its own strains. Loud popping inside the house, even though there's no one awake to be walking around. I hear wind. I feel the heater running.
More time passes as I realize that I'm not going to be able to sleep again.
So I get up and turn on my computer. It's unusually dark outside. Cloud cover must be very high up (too high to reflect city lights easily). There's snow outside. Weather.com says it's 30F/-1C out there with 22 mph/35 kph winds. Satellite maps show widespread cloud cover.
I've pondered before "the subtleties of the blessing and the curse". A curious thing, a mind that constantly searches for meaning, linking sensory input with logical meanings, joining literal with metaphorical. It works so persistently that where it fails to find correlation...
It creates.
So I wake up tonight from a type of bad dream that I've never had before. Caught/trapped in a bad situation, subject to the whims of a total stranger who seems (through the logic of the situation) intent to annoy or destroy me socially/emotionally for his own amusement. I think I prefer the other bad dreams, the nightmares that are the usual culprits for waking me up.
1-2 minutes pass as I ponder my situation.
I realize that T'Reese is also having a bad dream. She's asleep at my waist, within arm's reach. (Very unusual.) I reach down to touch her. She steps off the mattress (still within arm's reach, as my hand still rests on her back in the dark) walking as if she's dealing with legs that have "gone to sleep". Then she gets all affectionate but not in the way that usually means she wants food. Then she settles down in bed again to groom herself, out of arm's reach. So she's back to normal now.
1-2 minutes pass as I ponder her situation.
I realize that the house is under its own strains. Loud popping inside the house, even though there's no one awake to be walking around. I hear wind. I feel the heater running.
More time passes as I realize that I'm not going to be able to sleep again.
So I get up and turn on my computer. It's unusually dark outside. Cloud cover must be very high up (too high to reflect city lights easily). There's snow outside. Weather.com says it's 30F/-1C out there with 22 mph/35 kph winds. Satellite maps show widespread cloud cover.
I've pondered before "the subtleties of the blessing and the curse". A curious thing, a mind that constantly searches for meaning, linking sensory input with logical meanings, joining literal with metaphorical. It works so persistently that where it fails to find correlation...
It creates.