week 37

I don't know. I still stress out over this job. A lot less than the early days, but it's not moving any closer to zero. I still have plenty of issues in a week that leave me confused and adrift.

As an employer, they are also being confusing... slightly. On the "good" side of the tally, they are investing in staff salaries. Notably, they are giving everyone on the low end an automatic 0.5% pay raise, in addition to whatever everyone gets based on annual review merit scores. It's a nice gesture that they limited it to the poorest employees. On the "bad" side of the tally, however, is that the plan is to reduce budget for almost every department while simultaneously looking to increase student enrollment. They foresee a changed future, so they are trying to plan for a truly sustainable path forward. It's noteworthy (to me, you know what I think is happening in the world) that they identify healthcare costs as a significant issue. I don't know how we do all of that without reducing staff levels? I think it's excellent that they are trying to streamline instead of silo their operations.

I had two coworkers suggest that I would be a great candidate for the "next level" of job classification in this role, when we had a job posting for my same weekend schedule recently. I chose not to apply to the job, because I haven't reached any sustainable level of comfort with my current role yet, so I'm not ready for additional responsibilities. It was encouraging, though, to hear their evaluation, since I always feel like I'm just one bad phone call away from losing my place in this job. Rationally, I know it's not that dire, but emotionally that's still where I'm at.