Moody Monday

2026-Aug-17, Monday 04:23 pm
mellowtigger: (carebare pot)

Stressful/busy day at work. Semester start is next Monday. The blackout period for my team starts tomorrow and continues through Tuesday of next week. People are very strongly discouraged from taking any time off during this blackout period. People are scheduled for overtime too. I volunteered for an extra 2 hours on Sunday evening, with a small break after my regular shift.

That former mainframe database administrator I sometimes mention left me some gummies on a recent visit. I don't know where she bought hers, but I'm pretty sure they're this brand. I cut one of them into 1/3 to take immediately after work today. I'll see what it does and take either 1/3 or 2/3 before crawling into bed tonight. Full marijuana products have been legal in Minnesota for several years, but dispensaries are still few and highly expensive, unlike other states where legalization happened.

I hope it's effective at making the body stress and brain tension stop. My liver would appreciate it, I'm sure. I still have half a bottle of whiskey from whenever I last bought one. Just in case, for a convenient backup option that I know is effective.

Espers and Guides

2026-Aug-16, Sunday 05:16 pm
mellowtigger: (Omegaverse ABO)

I have a new favorite AI audio narration online. It's recently available at the PocketFM platform that mixes some stories with video or pictures. This story only has narration at the moment. I like this one because it's a creative setting in a way that I wouldn't have thought to try. It's a mixture of both Omegaverse and System genres, while using both of them minimally.

This new genre is apparently called Guides, maybe? I see many stories online that mention the Guide element, at least.

Click to read more about the separate Omegaverse and System genres that influence this story...

The Omegaverse influence is more obvious. I explained Omegaverse last month, with stories that are usually about social dynamics. Instead of alphas and omegas with wolf elements, it has magical espers and supportive guides in their place. The espers are the alpha equivalent, with their magically enhanced bodies and combat skills. The guides are the omega equivalent, with frailer bodies able to heal espers of the consequences of using their self-poisoning magic. Espers literally require guides to stay alive, so espers can become very protective and possessive of their guides. This esper/guide dynamic successfully reproduces the alpha/omega power and social disparities. Because guides require physical touch to heal espers, and because more touch means more healing, sexual involvements are immediately introduced as another alpha/omega equivalent. Basically... it's Omegaverse without the wolves, without the behavior driven by hormones and pheromones, and without the excessive sexuality.

The System influence is more subtle in the particular story that I have enjoyed this week. System stories are about worlds in which the characters live within universe systems that grant them physical stats and useful skills, just like in a video game. They're usually heavy on combat adventures. (Aside: Two of the System stories that I like are Shadow Slave and My Vampire System.) In this particular story, there's an Earth affected by invasive portals that release rampaging monsters. Espers have special skills, and espers have a level system that rates their magical strength. There's little System comparison beyond that brief similarity.

So... I don't know where to find the web novel text version, but here's the link to "[BL] Guide Me Harder" at that online platform I've mentioned before. I apologize for the corny title of this story. That's unfortunate. I feel that the sexual innuendo is just too obvious to seem clever. :/ On the plus side, since it's a free platform, the sexual elements are quite muted. It wasn't until episode 70 (about 14 hours in) that I finally confirmed the characters have Omegaverse secondary sex biology. There are sexy bits, but it's not overbearing.

I enjoy listening to the tale, at any rate. My fascination totally has nothing to do with the fact that the main character is stoic and untalkative. Nope, nothing at all. Probably. Maybe. LOL

dream

2026-Aug-07, Friday 05:37 am
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On my days off, you'd think that I would get a long night's rest. Instead, what has been happening for a few months is just intense catnapping. I sleep for an hour or more, wake up for a while, then repeat the cycle throughout the day. Tonight, during one of the short sleep cycles, I at least had dreams that I remembered upon waking.

Click to read the inconsequential details...

In the first dream, I was talking to a man that I don't know in real life. I don't recognize him from prior dreams either. We were both around age 30. Within this dream, he felt like somebody recognizable to my dream self but not well known. While we were talking, I grew certain that he seemed interested in me. I felt resistant, though, not understanding at all why he would be interested in me.

I think my brain rebelled at the implausibility, as the dream ended around that point, before anything interesting was said or done. I think there was a brief pause before the next dream started.

In the second dream, I was in an old and narrow house. Not my actual house, despite that brief description being similar. I was standing in the dark at night in front of a couch, maybe the furniture where I was talking to the man from earlier? Toward my left, my eye caught movement. At a front window, I saw two faces trying to peer inside my house. It was a man and a woman. It slowly became clear that they were trying to break into the house. Through mostly-closed window blinds, I could see hands moving to open the window. My dream self was immobilized, though, unable to react. I kept wanting to shout or to move or to turn on the bright flashlight on my phone, anything to startle them and drive them away from my house. Panic set in because of the immobility and the invading threat.

Emotion grew, and emotion is bad for thinking, so that dream ended immediately and I woke. I think I might have slept one more round during the night. Here I am, though, out of bed and writing a blog post at 5:30am. I guess today will be another day of getting nothing accomplished except listening to tales in YouTube and elsewhere, sleeping occasionally throughout the day.

draught

2026-Aug-01, Saturday 08:30 am
mellowtigger: (book)

I'm not sure that I've ever verbalized the word draught before, but I am certain that I've always had the incorrect pronunciation in my head.

I had the pronunciation in my mind like the word naught. Instead, the "f" sound is included, so it's pronounced like /drawft/ instead of /drawt/. Details in the link.
https://www.grammarly.com/commonly-confused-words/draft-vs-draught?msockid=298e701482fc65c51294672d837a64d5

How did I get on this kick? The AI videos/narrations that I've been watching on YouTube are filled with incorrect words, closed caption text with flashes of oriental characters for words that the AI couldn't translate to English immediately, and lots of mispronounced words. Lots of them. When draught appeared recently, I went searching online for verification of the correct pronunciation.

It turns out, I was wrong, but the AI was right in this particular case. :/

Moody Monday

2026-Jul-27, Monday 07:18 am
mellowtigger: (possum)

I've still got that unpleasant chore paralysis. I think all of the sprouts (the ones still unplanted) and transplants on the patio are dead now. Indoor plants are suffering but will restore easily. I haven't had a recycling bin for a month or more, and I still haven't called to ask why or if I'll get a replacement. Paper bags full of recyclable waste are piled up in the kitchen. Ugh.

I woke up at 5am local time. My bedroom window air conditioning unit was still running nonstop. Yesterday, I chatted with coworkers about the heat dome currently over the USA. Minneapolis was supposed to get only the edge of it, but it seems the main portion of that heat dome arrived here anyway. The Twin Cities weather alert yesterday had a forecast afternoon heat index of 43.3C/110F. For comparison, my coworker in Phoenix Arizona was already at 43.9C/111F heat index with a forecast for 45C/113F heat index. I checked the indoor thermostat on the main floor as I got ready for work at 7am. It showed 26.1C/79F air temperature. Even that high, my windows all had condensation on them because it was so humid outdoors. The heat isn't helping me get any outdoor chores done. Just another excuse to remain inert.

I had other topics intended for today. The usual topics for a Moody Monday post. It's too much though. So, instead... a poem? A sentiment? I can't find an original source of this text, but it is making its way through the internet regardless.

"In order to write poetry that isn’t political, I must listen to the birds. And in order to hear the birds, the warplanes must be silent."
- Marwan Makhoul

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