association
2011-Jul-17, Sunday 08:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mellowtiggerAntihistamines make me loopy. I know it, but sometimes they're still a necessary evil. I've been doping up on antihistamines over the last few days to help rid myself of a sinus infection. When my sinuses dry out, the infection airs out and goes away. It worked. The infection is gone, but the underlying allergies remain. It's been a few years, I think, since I relied on this many antihistamines. They're having their usual bad effect. Besides not thinking straight, my emotions are messed up. At least I've successfully caught up on missed sleep.
A brain thinking certain thoughts does a good job of finding a chemical emotional state to associate with it and store them together in memory. Unfortunately, the reverse is also true. Give the brain a chemically induced emotional state, and it finds associated thoughts to match.
I've grown unaccustomed to the feeling of lonesome. I learned in childhood to define lonesome as loneliness that only gets worse if I try to be around people. I find that I live better the less I'm reminded of other people in the world. My monkeysphere is very small. Recently, I find that my 2-person sphere is missing 1 person. Usually, I inhabit the sphere just fine with me and my 2 cats.
I know that this current state will pass. I wish I knew what was triggering my allergies, though. It's unusual for me to experience allergies in Minnesota at this time of year. I want to drop the antihistamines soon.
A brain thinking certain thoughts does a good job of finding a chemical emotional state to associate with it and store them together in memory. Unfortunately, the reverse is also true. Give the brain a chemically induced emotional state, and it finds associated thoughts to match.
I've grown unaccustomed to the feeling of lonesome. I learned in childhood to define lonesome as loneliness that only gets worse if I try to be around people. I find that I live better the less I'm reminded of other people in the world. My monkeysphere is very small. Recently, I find that my 2-person sphere is missing 1 person. Usually, I inhabit the sphere just fine with me and my 2 cats.
I know that this current state will pass. I wish I knew what was triggering my allergies, though. It's unusual for me to experience allergies in Minnesota at this time of year. I want to drop the antihistamines soon.