bonfire of the social dream
2019-Apr-28, Sunday 08:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mellowtiggerI had a long, weird dream. Most of it disappeared two hours ago, but I still retain enough of it to be worth recording in the dream journal. Moreover, I think I know why I dreamed it.
Real life: The 2019 autism conference was last week. I attended the Wednesday evening keynote and some Saturday morning sessions (archive). The very last session was about relationships and sexuality. It was brought up more than once that some of us (me included) think that it's too much work and not really worth the effort. Many want that, though, and are just bad at it.
Real life: After that session, I went to a local Boys & Brews meetup. Unfortunately, it was in a very loud location. Loud people, loud echoes, and loud music. After leaving the pleasant autism conference where they do ASL clapping instead of hands pounding together, I just wasn't going to stay very long in the noisy brewpub. I drank my "sour" very quickly and left very early. In addition, and I didn't notice it affecting me at the time, some of the more sexually active individuals were busy flirting (I think) with each other. Apparently my subconscious took notice.
Dream: So last night I had an unusual social dream. Most of it is all forgotten already, but I remember that there were a lot of people, I knew none of them from real life, and there was a big celebration. I was a younger version of myself. There were a lot of hookups being arranged (not including me), and I was preparing to leave everyone behind, with suitcases packed. Beyond that, I don't remember much. There were bonfires left unattended, so they burned down unsafely. Nothing got out of hand, although I helped chase down some fiery bits that were blowing away from one of them. It was weird that the bonfires had "square" wood logs, like railroad ties cut in half.
I know there was a lot more to it, but I don't remember anything else. There was a bit more to the significance of the above stuff, but I don't really want to get into that either. The whole relationship-or-no, hookup-or-no idea is just too complicated. Life is simpler on my own, and I appreciate simplicity. I'm better off not getting involved in the social realm, and I'm also better off not even trying to comprehend the web of interactions that other people weave for themselves.
Real life: The 2019 autism conference was last week. I attended the Wednesday evening keynote and some Saturday morning sessions (archive). The very last session was about relationships and sexuality. It was brought up more than once that some of us (me included) think that it's too much work and not really worth the effort. Many want that, though, and are just bad at it.
Real life: After that session, I went to a local Boys & Brews meetup. Unfortunately, it was in a very loud location. Loud people, loud echoes, and loud music. After leaving the pleasant autism conference where they do ASL clapping instead of hands pounding together, I just wasn't going to stay very long in the noisy brewpub. I drank my "sour" very quickly and left very early. In addition, and I didn't notice it affecting me at the time, some of the more sexually active individuals were busy flirting (I think) with each other. Apparently my subconscious took notice.
Dream: So last night I had an unusual social dream. Most of it is all forgotten already, but I remember that there were a lot of people, I knew none of them from real life, and there was a big celebration. I was a younger version of myself. There were a lot of hookups being arranged (not including me), and I was preparing to leave everyone behind, with suitcases packed. Beyond that, I don't remember much. There were bonfires left unattended, so they burned down unsafely. Nothing got out of hand, although I helped chase down some fiery bits that were blowing away from one of them. It was weird that the bonfires had "square" wood logs, like railroad ties cut in half.
I know there was a lot more to it, but I don't remember anything else. There was a bit more to the significance of the above stuff, but I don't really want to get into that either. The whole relationship-or-no, hookup-or-no idea is just too complicated. Life is simpler on my own, and I appreciate simplicity. I'm better off not getting involved in the social realm, and I'm also better off not even trying to comprehend the web of interactions that other people weave for themselves.